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December 21st, 2008

09:13 pm - A Quick Awesome Nintendo Power Pointed Out... I apologize for the miss in updating. I will get to it soon but in the meantime, here is one reason... :P Rockin in paper...Rockman 9 The game that is, this is just plan awesome!!!! ~Ja ne! Current Location: BG Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Concrete Man - MegaMan9

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October 3rd, 2008

09:29 am - Beaten Game List This is for me to keep track of the games I beat. Does not include games I own or have played. I will keep updating this as I go along. ^_^ Beaten Game List NES Super Mario Bros Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (arcade game) Adventures of Lolo 2 SNES Aaahh!!! Real Monsters Animaniacs Brutal: Paws of Fury Chrono Trigger (With final ending) ClayFighter Cool World Dino City Disney's Magical Quest starring Mickey Mouse Donkey Kong Country Donkey Kong Country 2 Fatal Fury 2 Final Fantasy Mystic Quest Goof Troop Hook Illusion of Gaia Jurassic Park Legend of Zelda, The: A Link to the Past Looney Tunes B-Ball Lion King, The Lufia II: Rise of the Sinistrals Mario Paint Mega Man Soccer Mickey Mania: The Timeless Adventures of Mickey Mouse Mighty Morphin Power Rangers Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Fighting Edition Monopoly Mortal Kombat Mortal Kombat II Mortal Kombat 3 The Pagemaster Pirates of Dark Water Primal Rage Puzzle Bobble/Bust a move The Ren & Stimpy Show: Veediots! Road Runner's Death Valley Rally Rocko's Modern Life: Spunky's Dangerous Day Secret of Mana SimCity SimCity 2000 Street Fighter II Turbo: Hyper Fighting Super Adventure Island Super Bomberman 3 Super Mario Kart Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars Super Mario World (Star World and Special Zone included!) Super Mario World 2: Yoshi's Island Super Off Road Taz-Mania Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles IV: Turtles in Time Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Tournament Fighters Timon & Pumbaa's Jungle Games Tiny Toon Adventures: Buster Busts Loose Tiny Toon Adventures: Wacky Sports Challenge Wario's Woods (Found on Animal Crossing) X-Men: Mutant Apocalypse SEGA GENESIS (Thanks to Sega Channel ^_^ ) Altered Beast (Sega Smash Pack on DC) Mr. Nutz Bonkers Brutal: Paws of Fury Bugs Bunny in Double Trouble California Games Castle of Illusion starring Mickey Mouse Cliffhanger Comix Zone Disney's Aladdin The Jungle Book Earthworm Jim Ecco Jr. Ecco: The Tides of Time Eternal Champions Fatal Fury Gargoyles Golden Axe (Sega Smash Pack on DC) Golden Axe II Golden Axe III The Great Waldo Search Krusty's Super Fun House The Lion King Mega Bomberman Mickey's Ultimate Challenge The Ooze Phantom 2040 The Pirates of Dark Water Ren & Stimpy: Stimpy's Invention Ristar Risky Woods Road Rash Road Rash 2 Road Rash 3 Samurai Shodown Sesame Street: Counting Cafe Shining Force (Sega Smash Pack on DC) Shining Force II The Simpsons: Bart's Nightmare Sonic & Knuckles Sonic 3D Blast Sonic Spinball Sonic the Hedgehog Sonic the Hedgehog 2 Sonic the Hedgehog 3 Sonic the Hedgehog 3 and Knuckles (Sonic 3 with Sonic & Knuckles with all master emeralds as Sonic/Tails) Knuckles the Echidna (Sonic 2 with Sonic & Knuckles) Streets of Rage Streets of Rage 2 Streets of Rage 3 Super Street Fighter II TaleSpin Tiny Toon Adventures: ACME All-Stars Tiny Toon Adventures: Buster's Hidden Treasure Toe Jam & Earl Toe Jam & Earl 2: Panic on Funkotron Toy Story VR Troopers Wacky Worlds We're Back: A Dinosaur Story X-Men Ariel: Disney's The Little Mermaid Battletoads GB & GB Color Krusty's Fun House Donkey Kong Land Kirby's Dream Land The Legend of Zelda: Link's Awakening The Legend of Zelda: Oracle The Legend of Zelda: Ages Yoshi Pokémon Blue Pokémon Yellow Pokémon Silver Road Rash Super Mario Land Super Mario Land 2: 6 Golden Coins Super Mario Bros. Deluxe (Super Mario 1 & SMB 2 Japan-Lost Levels) Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Fall of the Foot Clan Tetris Wario Land: Super Mario Land 3 Hamtaro: Ham-Hams Unite! King of Fighters 95 Mario Tennis GBA Legend of Zelda, The: A Link to the Past & four swords Sonic the Hedgehog Genesis Sonic Advance Sonic Advance 2 Super Mario Advance (Super Mario Bros 2) Super Mario Advance 3 F-Zero: Maximum Velocity Golden Sun Kirby: Nightmare in Dream Land The Legend of Zelda: The Minish Cap Lunar Legend DS Animal Crossing: Wild World Mario Kart DS New Super Mario Bros. (with all secrets) Rune Factory: A Fantasy Harvest Moon Star Fox Command Tetris DS Uno/Skip-Bo/Uno Freefall GAMEGEAR Sonic the Hedgehog (with all emeralds) Sonic the Hedgehog 2 N64 Banjo-Kazooie Bomberman 64 Chameleon Twist Chameleon Twist 2 ClayFighter 63 1/3 Diddy Kong Racing Extreme-G Extreme-G 2 Flying Dragon Harvest Moon 64 Hey You, Pikachu! Kirby 64: The Crystal Shards The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask LEGO Racers Mace: The Dark Age Mario Kart 64 (Not Mirror Course) Mario Tennis Mischief Makers Mortal Kombat 4 Monopoly Pokémon Snap Pokémon Stadium Pokémon Stadium 2 The Powerpuff Girls: Chemical X-traction StarFox 64 Super Mario 64 (All 120 stars) Super Smash Bros. Transformers: Beast Wars Transmetals War Gods Wave Race 64 Gauntlet Legends Yoshi's Story (opened secret Yoshi's) GCN Animal Crossing BeyBlade: Super Tournament Battle Bloody Roar: Primal Fury Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles Gotcha Force Kirby Air Ride Mario Party 5 Mario Party 7 Mario Power Tennis Mystic Heroes Powerpuff Girls: Relish Rampage Sonic Adventure 2: Battle Sonic Heroes Soul Calibur II Star Fox: Assault Super Smash Bros. Melee Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Tetris Worlds Wave Race: Blue Storm XG3: Extreme G Racing DC Capcom vs. SNK: Millennium Fight 2000 Marvel vs. Capcom: Clash of Super Heroes Power Stone Sega Swirl Sonic Adventure Sonic Adventure 2 Sonic Shuffle Soul Calibur Time Stalkers PS Beast Wars Beast Wars: Transformers Bloody Roar Bloody Roar 2 Bomberman Bomberman World Crash Bandicoot Crash Bandicoot 2: Cortex Strikes Back Dance Dance Revolution Konamix Digimon World Dragon Ball GT: Final Bout Final Fantasy VIII Lunar: Silver Star Story Complete Mega Man X5 Mega Man Legends Metal Gear Solid Monopoly Monster Rancher Mortal Kombat 3 Mortal Kombat Trilogy Rampage World Tour Road Rash 3D Spyro The Dragon Spyro 2: Ripto's Rage! Tail Concerto Tekken Tekken 2 X-Men: Mutant Academy Yu-Gi-Oh! Forbidden Memories Zoids PS 2 Soul Calibur 3 Dance Dance Revolution Max Dance Dance Revolution Max 2 Dance Dance Revolution Extreme 2 Dance Dance Revolution SuperNova 2 Bloody Roar 3 Dance Factory Monopoly Party Mortal Kombat: Armageddon Rock Band Yu-Gi-Oh! The Duelists of the Roses XBOX Dead or Alive 3 360 Dead or Alive 4 Guitar Hero Guitar Hero III: Legends of Rock Rock Band Wii Link's Crossbow Training Mario Kart Wii Pokémon Battle Revolution Wii Sports Wii Play Super Mario Galaxy (ALL 242 Stars!) Current Location: BG-TOL Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Crazy Motorcycle Tags: video games

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July 8th, 2008

09:40 am - Busy Continued? Well my time in Northeast Ohio was very good although I still didn't get everything I wanted done. I still need to see Snowy, Diana, and my Dad on my next trip which is in two weeks to help netrage pack  and actually move from his parents home into a nice apartment complex in Twinsburg. At the same time he is taking stuff such as furniture off my hands so I can have room in stoarge for other things. Then I decide to make a 3rd trip down in August to move the bigger stuff and needed stuff that I need for my new place. Sadly as I left Cleveland, having lunch with netrage, my dad called and said my last grandmother that is alive is now in the hospital... O_O I am praying she gets out alright. I would hate to lose my last one this year...other then my grandmothers that I am attached to like my ex step-mother Marisa (who had gotten breast cancer as of this march...but I can't get a hold of her lately...)  mother and netrage's grandparents who have done a lot for me. They seem to be in perfect health at the moment which is good. As soon as I returned to Bowling Green, I left again to Northern Michigan to a place called Higgins Lake. There with Kimiko, Dave ( we stay at his aunts place with his parents vacation home to houses down. ), Kim, Craig, and Jessica R. The Fourth of July was great as we sat in Dave's parents boat and watched the fireworks around the lake. It was like we were surrounded by fireworks. There was a new moon so we could also see the millions of stars right above us. Dave's parents stay with us and took us out boating and tubing. They also had a sail boat which I got to try with Fai. Kim and Craig went Kiacing and dragged Kimko around and then me around on the tube. ^_^ We got to see a sunken island where Dave got to stand on and it looked like he was walking on water. All was wonderful except after Craig and I got sun burned really bad as did Fai's back as Fai also broke out in some rash around his body. I think it is the swimmers rash or something that Kimiko had warned us about  as sun  screen  was too prevent it but Fai's lotion totally failed as I put some of it on my knees and they got burned the most. -_-* But other then that, all was great. Ironicly it was Jessica's 3rd month anniversary with her boyfriend and my 4th month anniversary with Fai!  ^_^  I got him Super Mario Galaxy  and  a small book  I made... (the book is not done yet >_> *** ) Also my very back tooth right before where my wisdom teeth were placed, the side of it disappeared... ;_; I didn't realize it till Saturday and it could have happened long ago with out me actually knowing about it...but it's gone now and I need to get it fixed without insurance... ;_; I hope to find a way since getting free dental means I have to return to Iowa and wait several months to get it. Happy news is that I got stars on all the 100cc Mario Kart cup! All I have to open up character wise is Baby Daisy, Dry Bowser, Baby Luigi, and Funky Kong...which may take me a while to do... ^_^*** But I am getting better at it though... This weekend I have Alicia's Christmas in July Party and going up to Lansing to retrieve my belongings so I may take them down the following weekend. *sigh* I still can't find work yet... ;_; ~Ja ne! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Sleeping Treasure in the desert (Final Fantasy CC)

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June 19th, 2008

11:34 pm - Running Scared... What do you do when you are alone? Normally I would play a video game, take a walk, clean, do the mountain of computer work... And I did all of these but... I still find myself crying? Why?  Ja..? Current Location: Bowling Green Current Mood: lonely Current Music: The sound of the computer...

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April 14th, 2008

11:49 am - Too good to be True? The movie- The making- Too bad it's all an April Fools joke huh? My brother told me about this movie in march and I just now looked into it. ^_^* ~Ja ne! Current Location: CID Current Mood: awake Current Music: It's my life...

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March 8th, 2008

12:17 am - Something unexpected... Two years ago... I found a puzzle out of no where. A puzzle that looked like any ordinary puzzle on a shelf. It had a beautiful picture on it that I wanted to complete on it. I sat it down onto a table and opened it as it read certain words. "With the completion of this puzzle, you are granted one wish." Strangely at first I didn't believe it, maybe because of that Pinata commercial where the Pinata says "I'll give you a wish if you don't hit me" then runs away saying "That's acting children." All I really wanted was to look at the picture. In the process of putting the picture together, I ran into many different things. I lost a few pieces, got tied up in other matters, left it alone for days on end, and even forgot about it for a while... Two years later... Around Christmas time, I had completed the puzzle...almost. It was a beautiful puzzle like I imagined but I still had a couple of pieces missing. Sadly I couldn't find them anywhere I looked. I almost thought that maybe the puzzle didn't have them to begin with for I had never ever seen those pieces. Shortly after Christmas a puzzle piece was delivered to me with a note of "What is your wish?" I still had one more to go as I put the piece in, the puzzle took on another picture. I couldn't believe it at first but then I wondered what would happen if I put the last puzzle piece in. What if I put a wish onto it? Only one. It wouldn't hurt would it? I had to be careful though for not only the puzzle was unique and wonderful but very very fragile. After thinking about it for a couple of months I decided I would look for the last piece. Regardless of it would grant me a wish or not, I still didn't believe in that part a hundred percent but I wanted to finish something I started. Five days ago... I found that last puzzle piece and completed the puzzle. The puzzle glowed a bright light, blinding and transformed in something I never expected... My wish... I had not told it of my wish, nor did I tell anyone of it and yet the puzzle had brought it at full force with thunder, lighting, rain and rainbows. Two years ago I thought of it only as a puzzle, now I think of it as treasure... ~Ja ne Current Location: CID Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Come~Inu Yasha 7th Ending Song

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January 11th, 2008

07:08 pm - What is this feeling? Have you ever felt... no matter how hard you tried... it seemed to get worse then better... where every word you said came out wrong... that you destiny was yelling at you... you couldn't reach it, hold it, or feeling... but it was in front of you... and the many many times you tried to grab it... it oozed out of your hands like thick water... ever day you feel it around you... laughing, playing, singing... yet it's still not in reach even with it beside you... it repeats that it's only a dream and nothing more... that it's your destiny but you can't have it... it says no... over and over again... but everything else is pushing you to it... only to fall through it... onto the hard floor... why is it there if I can't have it? Why won't it go away? Leave me alone? Or is this action the destiny and not it? Is this feeling the destiny? the fate? ~Ja Current Mood: crushed

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December 29th, 2007

01:50 am - Holidays and A chance? It's been a long time since I replied to this. Last time I was so upset and lonely that I couldn't do more than put a song up that meant what I truly feel. My birthday party was great. I thank Netrage, Yalith, and Kimiko so much for coming down to see me for my birthday. I also got the chance to drop by Ohio again the weekend before Thanksgiving since my parents were driving down for other reasons. And finally I was able to take a week off to come down to Ohio again for the Dec23 to Jan 2. (It was so ruff getting here with CID in a no fly streak due to weather in the past 5 days before it. My plane was cancelled, so I took a bus to ORD then went on standby to get to Columbus since Cleveland and Akron already had their last flights. (I was supposed to go to Cleveland) Luckly Netrage drove up with his brother Andy to come get me. So far Christmas has been so wonderful! I got Christmas eve with Kimiko, Johnny, and Katie. Christmas day with my Dad and my new step mom and siblings. Shortly after I got to hang out with Ben-kun and finally I got to see Fai-kun! After them I got to see Phil and Jen. And tomorrow I get to see Yalith which I can't wait, Jen again on Sunday, and Netrage is throwing a small New Years Party. So I will help with that since we will have his nice house all to ourselves, we will play Catan, this new game called "imaginiff...", Mario Party 8, DDR, and the card game "Bang". Hope fully I will get to see Dave on New Years too. (Kimiko's man...^_^ who looks like Orando Bloom with long hair.) As of work, it seems I'm getting laid off for Comair to take over around Feb-Apr sometime. So I'm looking for jobs as I still want my flt attendant jobs. I applied with United Airlines and after the Holiday, I will apply with the others and Skywest again in April/May. I was kind of devistated since this is the third job I've been laid off and the second in a row to be laid off but I seemed to be better. I'm looking for jobs in Ohio (Columbus more likely) or any major airports. That is pretty much it for now. I got a new phone and seemed to have lost my other one without putting all of the numbers in it yet which really annoys me, so please e-mail,text your phone numbers please, so I can get those again. (Ben, you're safe but I need your's again Fai!!! Also need Jon's.) I was almost missing online for a month or so because my computer fried it's motherboard and grapics card some how. But I finally got one back so I'll be online if my scdule allows me since this has been my schdule since vacation- (AP) Airport (DC) Daycare Monday- AP- 4am - 12pm (Normally off) DC- 3pm - 6pm Tuesday- AP- 4am - 12pm (Normally off) DC-3pm-6pm Wednesday- DC- 3pm - 6pm Thursday- AP- 4am - 2pm DC- 3pm - 6pm Friday- AP- 4am - 2pm DC- 3p - 6pm Saturday AP- 4am - 6pm Sunday- Ap- 4am - 6pm So... that's about it other than would anyone know why I am so tired regardless of enough sleep so I can stop taking meds for depression? It's a real pain, I wouldn't think depression makes you want to sleep all of the time but it seems to be my case. I'm starting to think the new medication I'm on my be making me sleeply right now... I want to wish all of my friends and family a great Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! ~Ja Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: It's Friday, I'm in love!

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November 24th, 2007

11:19 pm - Left in the ice rain... "Given Up" ~LINKIN PARK~ Wake in a sweat again Another day's been laid to waste In my disgrace Stuck in my head again Feels like I'll never leave this place There's no escape I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me I don't know what to take Thought I was focused but I'm scared I'm not prepared I hyperventilate Looking for help somehow somewhere And no one cares I'm my own worst enemy I've given up!! I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say!! Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me!! Goddddddd!!!! Put me out of my misery Put me out of my misery Put me out of my Put me out of my fucking misery I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all away I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me ~Ja Current Mood: angry

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September 29th, 2007

06:21 pm - So much for SECOND CHANCES I've been looking for a Sailor Moon rp to join and be apart of... Well a friend of my suggested one called Second Chance I applied for Sailor Saturn working really hard on my character. Now I began to ask them questions while I was building the character that can have "ABSOLUTELY IN COMMON" with the counter part before it and they started accusing me of nagging and that I shouldn't rp because I "can't take criticism..." EXCUSE ME?!?!?! I've been online rping since the INTERNET was born and I can't rp?! To make it worse they said "Keep that in mind, because we won't move on our stance about outside powers. " BAKA'S!!! I was asking to have powers with my character and they said no which I was fine with the first time why are do they think I can't hear them?!?!?! So they decided to get rid of me by INVITING this girl Chizumi to apply for MY CHARACTER... At first ironic? NO!!! First off she made her profile in one day (broke 1 rule), Her character dances (broke rule 2 since there are 2 others that do some kind of dance), and I tried to talk to her and she PRETENDS I'M NOT THERE/IGNORES ME AND EVEN ASKS THE EXACT SAME QUESTIONS I DID?!?!?!?!?! And now she's even pre-approved for the character as everyone is ignoring me... WTH?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Most of these people are from a Sailor Moon community called Tower of Time. They seem all stuck-up and selfish... I totally wanted to kill myself of worthless ness since I'll never get to rp Sailor Saturn of any kind... Not in cosplay... not online... IT'S NOT FAIR!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Some high power really really hates me.... Anyway... The only one I was having problems with was Gi who the people on the site said "Was sugar coated with sweetness" which I believed until Chizumi wrote this... "Keep that in mind, because we won't move on our stance about outside powers." They told me no once! I wasn't nagging about it!! And now they are claiming I'm spamming with smilieys when I only put ONE on my application?!?!?! This isn't fair!!! I didn't expect to be challenged for my character and even if I was that's fine but they could have told me DAMN IT!!!!!! But noooo!!!! They just wanted me to guess?! Now I'm at fault because they are "ADVANCE" I feel completely useless...and stupid... This is the second time with this site I had a misunderstanding with them on how I was thinking and now they hate me...I think they hated me from the start... The Admin was nice enough to finally explain everything to me as well as Chizumi... And the whole thing was a huge mis-understanding on my part and now I'm sure all the mods and my friend? the admin of the forum hates me... I really hate myself... I really really hate myself... ;_; ~Ja Current Mood: aggravated

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September 24th, 2007

02:24 pm - Nothing new, just problems as usual... It's been a while hasn't it? Not much has happened other than a few things... First my dad (Darin) got married in August which I came down to Ohio for a few days. It was very nice and very busy. I got to see Eric's new car, hangout with Jen and Kimiko and Dave who also went to the party, as well as Yalith. It was a great week till I returned home and I could NOT stay awake for what ever reason it was. I just ate, slept, and worked the rest of the time. I figured something was up and went to the doctors to be put on this Risperdail medicine which made me made my dreams real or something and 10times more tired. I have to give a thank you to Netrage and Kimiko for helping me in that mess. On labor day, I drove to Ames Iowa to visit Jason on my only day off. It was very nice as we watched anime, went out to eat, and showed me around campus which had a DDR machine but the center was closed for the holiday... Other than that my major problem at the moment is getting to Chicago to go to an interview that is under 200$ and doesn't leave me there...Skywest doesn't have anything in Iowa this month sadly for me to go apply somewhere nearby... I also got my passport in a week in a half?! I'm guessing this is because I told the passport registration that I work for an airport and they were able to give it to me immedately since the background check was already done there. I'm debating if I should try to call people but I don't really have much to say, if anything good at that. Next month, will be my one year anniversary with work and what has really brightened my days is that Netrage might drive down to be with me on my birthday with Yalith. My birthday last year was terrible so I will be very grateful if this one can be better. It would be nice have people visit for a change but Robert won't let Netrage set foot in the house due to his "Attitude" five years ago in defending me, so I might have to buy a hotel for them to stay in for a little bit and have them visit my house when he's not home...but I'd rather spend money on a room then not have them here at all... ~Ja Current Mood: disappointed

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June 1st, 2007

09:36 pm There are times when you are just amazed on how much you give to people... And how little you get back... And through it all... You still keep giving... and keep hoping... to get something more... or something thoughtful... or just to be disappointed again... ~Ja Current Mood: drained Current Music: Listen to your Heart ~D.H.T

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May 28th, 2007

02:24 pm - Fly away... It seems some how that I have lost all friendships I ever had. I have a few but sway on a thin line. I don't think I will date ever again. Not unless some miracle happens. But heart break is too much for me. I've also decided on not to return to Ohio. It's best after all the problems I have there not to return. After August 21, 2007 I will go apply to be a flight attendant and relocate to where a station can be found. (I'm hoping Chicago because it would only be 1 flight away to visit Ohio. It's super hard to become a Flight attendant but if I cut off all communications for the 3 weeks of training (I'll be back on weekends and I might be able to just stay in Ohio during those) Being a Flight Attendant is Hell during training but it's Heaven right after words. It makes enough to support myself and I can pay back my loan. I've never wanted a job so much as I do this one. But I've talked to countless Flt attendants and it sounds like a job I'd want. ~Meet new people ~Travel to new places ~Sleep ~Money ~Have fun ~Nice benefits Though the only draw back is being gone often but even as part time later I've heard it is good. I'd love to dress up too and the uniforms are really nice. And I'd be able to visit my friends where ever they move! But I'd have to put all of my stuff to a minimum and passengers can be terrible at times but not as bad as front counter of an airline. If I don't make it as a flt attendant then I will return to the airlines and Ohio for college. I really just want to do daycare, though daycare makes close to nothing and it's hard to get a secretary job which was my other career that I want. But I will go for those if I can't get my flt attendant job. My schedule is different everyday at the day care and my airport job is staying the same. But if all goes well, I'll be able to get lots of swimming in and save up money. I worked from 4am to 8pm the last two days subbing for people...I'm so tired, I'll probably take today to rest since I actually don't have daycare today. Now, let summer begin... ~Ja Current Mood: drained Current Music: Cruel Summer on the radio

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April 4th, 2007

08:54 pm - *deep sigh* I opened the window of hope yesterday and only for today the wind knocked me off my feet and up against a wall... Closing that window to shut again... This is becoming hopeless... Why do I still continue... ~Ja ne Ps: AD update coming soon... Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Kiseki no Umi ~Record of Lodoss TV Tags: eric

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March 23rd, 2007

12:10 am - A real detour... Well somehow I got this crazy idea to go to Anime Detour... And dispite my car breaking down completely and my have war with my step-fathers family thanks to my loving Uncle Troy...I was able to make it this far... Sadly this is Hotaru's first road trip as well...which is really scary. It's also very scary for one to see another who they have never seen face to face and because of that fact. The what if's and procautions... this trip is screwed up. All because Jacob was worried about me, the whole thing was blown out of water... Why do I have to mess everything up? Why can I even plan a trip right without stressing over it the night before? What is worse is that I will never own any of Sailor Saturn's outfits...NONE OF THEM!!! My mom couldn't even get my dress done though it was due to life mostly and it could be done in April but I won't need it in april...not with Cos-Arena...and then I paid Aeris's mother to make me a Sailor Fuku and it's been almost two years and still everytime I go over there, it doesn't fit nor does she messure me to MAKE SURE it fits... This is so not fair... Why can't I do things to where I won't get stressed out over them during and before they happen? Now that I keep thinking about this, I really don't want to go anymore...I might not since I'm still up and was supposed to leave at 7am. Not going to happen since I need so much sleep and... Not to mention Jacob's family went all the way and got us a hotel room? A room? What the...there goes my food bill that I wanted to keep a low... And Gas for this trip? I don't even know what I'm getting myself into... This just makes me hate myself more... I'm also sorry to everyone about anwsering phone calls. I've been so busy the past few weeks...I'm so sorry... Wish me the best of luck...if I go... ~Ja ne Current Mood: aggravated

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February 28th, 2007

11:55 am - Back to Business... My window is fixed!! It looks so nice, though it took chunk of my money with it, it looks brand new. Now to fix the rest of the car... ~Tires...I need three... ~Wind shield wipers...(NR said something about just getting the rubber from some where? I remember...) ~I think the ball joint or something but this will have to wait for a bit because this will probably cost like the window...but I don't hear anything wrong with it at the moment. Also... It's time I get back to Life... Due to certain events, I had forgotten many things that I learned in the past... I blame this to depression and withdraw of NR and my life that I left behind in Ohio... But now... My life is always continuing, always changing...so I have to be like water and change with it. It just doesn't end with moving. Even if I move I still have to deal with things and it's up to me to make it all that it's worth... I WILL be returning to Ohio at the end of this year before Christmas. I'm not sure how long though. It's mostly to tie up loose ends and to finish something I started and maybe start something new. I WILL be applying to go back to college and this will most likely be in Ohio though. Then If I find someone around then I would like to live somewhere warmer...a majority of the time. I want it to be close to Ohio but near a beach. I really want to live near a beach, like an hour or two away though... It's time I did things right no matter how bad my luck is... ^_^* ~Ja ne Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Man Eater???

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February 26th, 2007

02:35 pm - All it took was ice... So what happened to my window? I fixed it... I covered it... I did it... I cut myself and got blisters but I did it... I went to the store, got window plastic and ducked taped it!! And it survived a huge ice blizzard!!! I didn't cry... I didn't worry... I just... Did it... So the next day after my van's window shattered (It would have just made a hole but it was so cold that the whole thing shattered!) We were hit with another storm. One so powerful that the airport had to use it's generator to keep electricity. I didn't realize it when everything blinked off then on again giving my partner static shock till I was on my way home. When I went to my car the first thing I heard was "OWWW! My ** EYES! THAT HURT!!" I walked out from under the walk way to get hammered with mini ice balls. They actually hurt and everywhere I looked there was ice on EVERYTHING!!! EVERYTHING!!!! It was covered in it. Then I got to my car and it was a huge block of ice. (Also note that my car was there since 4am and I am now leaving at 4pm due to every since airline closing other than Allegin which they were de-icing a plan in that weather for 3 hours which is VERY DANGEROUS... and we had to rebook everyone) I tried kicking it but I barely made a dent in the ice. SOOOO I was going to head back and spend the night at the airport when Dave of TSA broke into his car after it was there since 11am and he could still get his driver side open. I asked him if he was going by the street my house was on and luckily enough he was. The way home was a bit scary as the sides of the highway were nothing but sheets of ice and that's when I noticed that the places around the airport had no power. Later at home, Brandon had three of his friends over and they were all playing monopoly on Gamecube, which leads to another thing because the day before I found a zipper handle of a sea horse that said Atlantis on it...and then the next day my mother was watching the movie Aquamarine which is about a mermaid. O_O But then after the movie which wasn't bad at all, the power went out. Mom busted out the candles and Brandon, myself and his friends all played hide and seek. (I used my DS Lite for a flashlight. ) Suddenly I wake up the next day in my bed, like a dream...I thought it was a dream at first but then Robert told me I had fainted. I'm guessing it's from not getting any sleep the night before to fix my window. This song keeps appearing on the radio... how ironic... And I really wanted this guy to win on American Idol and I don't even watch it. I think someone is telling me something... I truly believe now... ( It's not over! ) This song reminds me what I need to do... Who I need to be... What I am doing here... ~Ja ne Current Mood: busy Current Music: It's not over~Daughty

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February 23rd, 2007

06:33 pm - HOLY MOTHER OF WINDOWS AND ACCIDENTS!!! MY BACK WINDOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Please tell me it's not going to more than at least two hundred dollars!!! PLEASE!!! Why can I never save money!!! ;_; I backed into a dumpter as a storm was beginning the only good news in this is that I dodged an accident and I didn't panic... yet.... ;_; But I need my car... And a big storm is supposed to hit us this weekend...starting now... I'm not crying... I'm not crying... yet... I know normally I would cry at this... surprisingly I didn't so that has to be a good thing but... NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! It's so cold!! I need my window back!!! And out of everything that is happening!! ~Ja... Current Mood: cold

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February 21st, 2007

03:34 am - DO NOT read this! I was going to write a happy journal entry... I swear I was... It was one of hope and wonder... Not any more... Maybe not ever again... ( Click this and you are cursed with misery for your life... ) I was blown away What could I say It all seemed to make sense. Your takin away everything And I can't do without. I try to see the good in life. The good things in life are hard to find. We're blowin away, blownin away Can we make this something good? Current Mood: crushed Current Music: It's not over~Daughty

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